On the eve of the beginning of 2017, I am very excited to change in the next year. Change moderatly, not all at once and not all or nothing, as this article found in the Huffington Post explains.
I have already set some goals on organization, as outlined in a previous post, writing and time management.
Also, in the future, (like starting tomorrow) I will try to keep myself from dwelling on things that have happened in the past, and things that I cannot control. These keep me up too late at night, and only increase my feelings of anxiety. Little things keep me up at night, like worrying about other people’s perceptions of me, or trying to keep everyone happy. [My husband says that I’m a people pleaser, and I wouldn’t argue with that fact] EXAMPLE: I just mailed a copy of the book that I wrote a chapter in, to my friend living in Massachusetts, and it kept me from a nice nap thinking about the snow conditions up there- like, what if it gets caught in the rain, and Jenny doesn’t get home until late at night from work? <It’s supposed to rain on Tuesday, which is the day Mr. Postman said that it would arrive; only after I got home I thought about asking for a plastic bag to put the book in, or a waterproof envelope…but then when I’m at home- it’s too late>
Another problem that I do have is thinking of something that I should have done earlier (a delay in thought processing)
The excessive worry/anxiety results from the Traumatic Brain Injury that I have, from a car accident back in 1997. Coming up on 20 years! Although it has been a long time since my injury, one among many long lasting problems effects my moods. I have not had a panic attack since October [only due to a MetroAccess mishap], and have learned to control my seizure episodes through conscious breathing and meditation.
Let’s hope that I can better control the worries in 2017!