It’s that time again…

The most wonderful time of the year…

-says Andy Williams

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So why does everything feel so…


                       BLAH???

not the holiday mood whatsoever…

and I LOVE the holiday mood, the music, the baking, just the mood of everything.  The little acts of kindness that you may not see at any other time of year.

….Maybe because I am too busy to do anything, but I do everything that includes procrastinating and resembling anything productive??

MAYBE that’s it,

• …maybe because we just had to put my dog and best buddy to sleep…  I mean, I spent ALL my time with him, part of our family for 12½ years!  It’s been seven years that he’s been my everything (since I quit my job to be a stay at home doggie mom), my main focus point, the reason for me to rush home from everything I was doing to go check in with him.  I quit my job at the nursing home, (b/c of the stress) and to top my list of reasons that I shouldn’t get a new job, was always Chazzy’s getting older…

• …maybe it’s because I’ve just encountered a huge life change, the lifestyle change of being once again in the working world, a very small job [4 hours at a time max- so I thought Chazz would approve of my still being somewhat productive while caring for him]  So I am working at the library near my home, a very nice job with lots of friendly people I can see IN PERSON [and not just through a screen on my computer]

• …maybe it’s been COVID, and this way of living.  My friend and I were discussing how the prettiest tree in our neighborhood didn’t really shine in its glory of the years past, and maybe it’s because there’s been the cloud of COVID hanging over us.  Or maybe it’s just been a lack of rain.  COVID has turned everything upside down  and has really isolated us all.  

• …maybe its because the brain injury ZOOM support group that Brain Injury Services created suddenly stopped meeting over the summer; and all the other support groups stopped meeting.
• …maybe because the weather keeps fluxuating between hot and cold proving the Global Warming/Climate Change issue a more pressing reality than previously thought…

AND THEN MAYBE ITS JUST THE EXCESS OF YARN I HAVE LAYING AROUND BEGGING TO BE USED! 
(That’s a positive spin, and I’m sticking with it!)

…And then my mom (the voice of reason)

tells me to be grateful for what I do already

have…

WHICH I GUESS IS A LOT MORE THAN

MISSING WHAT I DON’T HAVE…