It happened. After 9 years…I must admit that it was hard, the hardest decision that I have ever made, and that there are many things that will be missed from the nursing home.
But this is after all, the first job from which I have ever resigned. This was my first job in my professional career. As is stated in the picture, there are many emotions coursing through my body right now. Love, for the residents, reminiscent of all of the fun times and guilt, feeling guilty for leaving these residents. But that is not a main reason to stay at a job that no longer suits the needs of my life. I need a break, need a change, a change from caring too much. Caring too much about the residents’ quality of life, and caring too much about my coworkers’ approach to working at the nursing home. I feel that I care too much, and don’t like the changes that have been occurring within the nursing home.
A friend says that its good, ready for a new chapter in my life. When one door closes, another will open, turn the key, let your troubles out. Just keep on tryin’ and workin’ and hopin’, you’ll have no time to sigh or pout. When one way says no, another says go, just look within and never doubt. When one door closes another will open, that’s what life is all about.
I never thought that a song that I had learned in elementary school could give me such comfort later in life.
It is hard, but just as my friends and parents have told me, leaving is a good thing, there were too many changes going on causing unnecessary stress, and I just need a change. That doesn’t mean that I will forget the residents or not visit, I don’t think they can ever keep me away from that nursing home. And I will continue to work in this field, I just need a little time off from all the stress that come along with a job like this. Maybe a change in priorities for a little while. Maybe a chance to write that book that I’ve been talking about writing for the past 10 or 15 years.
Change, change is hard, but it is the one constant thing in life.