This beautiful Thankful Thursday 

that actually felt like fall, 

as I sat outside on my parents’ front porch and felt the cool breeze whipping my hair around my shoulders, I felt total contentment.

That feeling soon changed after I got home.  It was dusk  already- that time when you think it’s going to stay light enough to finish walking down this path in the woods with your dog, but then realize it is already dark as you try to hurry home.  That was me.  That threw the game off, and I couldn’t figure out what to eat without guidance.  I kept talking in circles over the dinner that my husband had made for us, calling my friend while trying to get our plans for tomorrow straight and coordinated with my other 2 friends, and was just like “BLAH, I don’t know what’s wrong, I don’t know.  I feel like…I don’t know.”   [My husband thinks thats all i ever say now, ‘I don’t know’ and ‘whatever’]  I guess I really felt like I didn’t have a purpose.  Before going to bed at an insanely early time (for me) I check my phone, find an email from my ‘supervisor’ at the Longwood University Alumni Association for which I write blogs, I was AND STILL AM thrilled that she liked my last post I wrote for Longwood, and was able to re-find my purpose.  My purpose right now is to spread joy, while telling others of my life experiences through the very difficult high school experience that I had (as if everyone else’s high school experience was anything BUT difficult)

Thinking about the next day, I put the baby blanket that I had crocheted for my friend through the washer to give to her at lunch that day, when I realized I really should STAMP OUT a handmade card for her when my friend and I see her.  And then I realized what I am thankful for; I am thankful for the ABILITY TO STILL CREATE THINGS WITH MY BY MYSELF WITH MY HANDS.  When I was in my awful car accident so long ago, no one knew what would become of me, if I would be able to function independently.  I am so thankfully appreciative that I am able to do all this, graduated college, went on to hold down a job for nearly a decade- spreading joy through working with those at a nursing home and now through volunteering at my church, working with the high school girls, babysitting when needed and being a friend.    I am thankful for doing cute things like creating baby blankets and creating homemade cards.