Mahatma Gandhi

Yes, there must be a belief in yourself, but ultimately remember:

Through God, all things are possible.
Matthew 19:26

And I believe that this is how I came through my car accident so successfully.  There were people all around the state praying for me, the church that I belonged to, my extended families’ churches, churches I have never attended and the religious groups in my school, everyone in my community.  I strongly believe in the power of prayer.

And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive if you have faith.
Matthew 21:22

God heard those prayers; I doubted his existence since he had let this happen, and I just knew I had to try very hard to get better.  Even though it was so hard, so painful, even though I had wanted to cut my arm off [my left arm was curled up with so much tension that it physically hurt], I kept trying and sweating.  It was me trying and sweating, but in hindsight it was God who gave me the willpower to go on.

 It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.
Psalm 118:8

And I need to remember not to take everyone else’s advice entirely too seriously.  Throughout the years I have received much advice on how to act, what to do and what to feel.  It has made me feel really bad, insecure and paranoid, and it hurts too much to care about what other people think.  I am journaling, and journaling constructively, I did learn that through some therapists in my past.  I read books by doctors of psychology, when I feel compelled or am in a hard place.  I’m not going to go to therapy.  I can handle this myself, and even my neighbor said that I can just talk to a friend, I don’t need to pay someone just to listen to me.  Sure, they may give me helpful suggestions, but I just can’t afford it.  I feel guilty spending money on things I’m not sure that I need.  My husband’s always willing to listen, and there’s my mom, trusted neighbors.  It is hard not to look towards myself, but towards the Lord, when He is an invisible entity, and a person cannot visually see him, but only through the action that are a product of his being.

I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.
Phillipians 4:13

Always remember how far you have come, and never doubt how far you can go…

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