I am allowed to have an ‘off‘ day every once in a while. That doesn’t mean that I AM an off person, that means I’m just human.
What? What happened? What day is this? Is it Tuesday- oh, I only say this at 9:30 at night, after I’ve had my bowl of strawberries as dessert and I glance over at my weekly pillbox with the big T full of pills forgotten to take earlier this morning.
And my day never quite got started.
That would explain my listlessness and bewildered looks standing in the middle of the kitchen trying to decide what to do.
Even 20 years since the car accident resulting in a traumatic brain injury I still forget things from time to time. Just like everyone else, people who even don’t have a brain injury forget things occasionally.
The difference is that I’m so hard on myself, telling myself that this shouldn’t happen, I shouldn’t have forgotten this- what did I just do? I wasted my whole day! It was rainy, yucky rainy all day, I left the house to vote that morning, which I guess threw me off. I read a little on Tuesday, I guess that was productive- but it feels like a wasted day just because I’m not planning on reading that book, I have so much else to do. What do I have to do? well, we are studying 2 different books in 2 of the other groups in which I devote my time.
I should have been reading one of those. But would’ve could’ve, should’ve, Should’ve ain’t never done nothin.
Don’t be so hard on yourself, I’m so thankful that I have people in my life who give me self assurance that I need it. My pastor says that some days we just need to do nothing.